It’s hard to find the right words to express the fear that accompanies having someone you love falling apart, but I think it is really important to emphasis that anxiety; depression and fibromyalgia, all of which stole my daughter a few years ago and seemed to never want to let her go, affects everyone around the victim. My daughter has a young daughter, a husband, a sister, a mother, a father, all of whom had to witness this funny, spirited, daring, loving, open minded woman transform at great speed, via anxiety, through depression and fibromyalgia, into someone who could barely speak.
My daughter had a full loving life before she became ill, and has lost many years because of it; and we, her family, who love her so much and found ourselves helpless in the face of her illness, lost those years along with her.
For me, as a mother, watching the light fade from my daughter’s eyes, watching her withdraw deeper and deeper within herself as the pain got worse; communicate with little more than grunts, where before she was always chatty and entertaining, was both intensely distressing and intensely frightening.
You feel so utterly helpless, and every day brings its fear that there might be no more of her left at all. The standard medications with which she was treated over the years did little other than numb her; they did nothing to give her life back. Her elder sister, ran her life for her, taking her daughter to school etc., cleaning and cooking, all the things she longed to do herself, she also let me know if extra help was needed, as she had withdrawn so much it was difficult for her to ask for help herself.
For us all, her discovery of CBD oil was little short of a miracle.
After all those years of seeing her almost trapped in her house, desperately unhappy and in constant pain, none of us could believe the transformation—or the speed with which it happened. Within a month she had weaned herself off her other medications, and her old personality—the shining girl I remembered had returned!! After what seemed like years of silent suffering- we were able to talk again, properly, mother to daughter, we talked for hours, and her mind was as clear as a bell, she managed to put into words how she had been feeling, she made me a coffee and didn’t wince in pain, not even once, it was if she had been freed from a very cruel prison!! All those little tasks we all take for granted, she is now able to do, she has developed ambitions, she has plans for the future. CBD oil has an extraordinarily effective treatment for people in my daughters situation. I am not saying it is an universal panacea, that it will cure everyone, but I know only too well, too clearly, the difference it has made in my daughter’s life. For her it has been, finally, after years of struggle, a relief from very real and extreme suffering, and for me, at last, I have my daughter back.